I know we have all experienced this, a time in your life when everything sucks all at once. We are talking about suckage on the apocalyptic level.
The good part is these moments go away and life goes on but life is oh so not fun while it is happening I call this mode Survival mode.
The last few weeks before school started were survival mode for us. While out to dinner with friends I had this unbearable pain in my lower back on one side, It hit super quick and got horrible fast. after having them rush me home my husband took one look at me and took me to the ER I had an inkling what it may be. I was right. I had large kidney stones in each kidney. This is the first time I have had this. You guys this pain was horrific. I will answer the labor vs kidney stone pain question immediately. KIDNEY STONES ARE WORSE! It took two doses of morphine to dull the pain enough so I could breathe again. I had to stay over night so the doctor could do surgery on one kidney to break up the stones the next morning. after stents and another surgery on the other kidney The pain has been on and off for the last few weeks while I pass smaller stones. It took awhile to feel like myself again.
During all of this my whole family got this horrible cough that spurred on my nine yr old’s asthma that has not been a problem for the last five years. Inhalers and breathing treatments the whole nine yards. Then two of my kids and husband got the 24 hour stomach bug and our AC was out. We were also in the process of finding our puppy a new home after four months of it just not working. Cue horrible feelings of emotional guilt.
I seriously did not think I would make it through this awful time. Surprise, of course I did!
what got me through was just living in the moment not and trying not to care about my whole family being in pj’s and eating out of takeout boxes. I tried not freak (But failed a lot) about the house being a disaster and that I still had a lot to get ready for when school started.
I had neighbors who brought meals and family who helped me immensely. I also did not bat an eye when my girls would binge watch seasons and seasons of kids shows that usually make my skin crawl. I shudder to think the amount of time there eyes were glued to screens.
Things are all pretty much back to normal. I am counting my blessings and knowing that things could have been much worse.
One of my girls asked me why things seemed to be so awful all at once. I told her that things have to suck really bad sometimes so we can know how good we have it. I know I will have plenty more opportunities to learn this lesson over and over and over again.
I do hope life is boring for just a little while though.