With two of my kids being in school all day and my other two home most of the day I have categorized them in two groups The Bigs and the Littles (Yes I know I am way too clever for my own good)
The littles are cute no matter what they do. They are sneaky and full of energy. They are my Bonnie and Clyde and my Abbott and Costello all rolled into one. How lucky they are to have one another. How lucky I am to have both of them.
My lack of sisters of my own makes me exhale a big sigh of relief somedays for the extra drama I did not have to experience, but also can cause a dull pain other days for the lack of having someone by my side to connect with like only sisters can.
All I know is that when they grow up they better invite me most of the time when they hang out together and never charge me for the therapy bills they accrue because they have me as their mother!
I knew my four year blog anniversary was coming pretty quickly so I thought I better look it up to make sure I didn’t get it wrong. After I found that I did indeed start blogging four years ago on the thirteenth of February I started to read my very first posts. They were short and sweet. They were about my life and my kids. They were genuine and a little more filled with grammatical errors (not that I have gotten much better in that department) But to tell you the truth not that much has changed.
They were still about my drama filled girls that this blog has always been about. Rough mornings getting them ready for school and nights filled with everything but sleep. I wonder sometimes will this stage ever end? Will I ever officially stop Living The Scream? As I kept on reading I realized I don’t want too. This little life of mine is filled with just as much joy if not more than the trials. With all the drama I still get to stare into those sweet little eyes that belong to four young girls who call me Mom.
I have been really struggling lately with the decision to have another baby. Sometimes I think WOAH! This is just too crazy I don’t think I can mentally manage another child ever. Sometimes I think no way can this part of my life be done. I need to feel those little kicks in my stomach and smell that warm sweet newborn smell once more. Oh how this decision stuff is tough!
One thing I am super great full for is that four years ago I started this journey of sharing my life openly here. It has taken me many places. I have met so many friends. I have learned so much about myself and what I can and want to do. I really think every mom needs a passion something they can do that brings them a little solace in the crazy world that childrearing can be.
It’s hard to know sometimes what I should write. How many sponsored posts I should commit too and really think about if anyone is reading my words at all. When I was looking back I loved the simplicity in my words and how casual they were in expressing the way my life was and still is now. I think I want more of that. More realness, more struggles, more humor. Fun things I can look back on and smile about because wether I like it or not there will be a day when I will realize that my life has calmed down immensely and I will not be living the scream any more.
I love a good television series I really do. One thing I am bad at is when I have access to all of the episodes via Netflix is spreading them out so I can still live my life and function normally. Much like I am with a good book. I usually focus all efforts and energy on finishing it while no one see’s or hears from me for days while my kids wander around the house looking for food and clothes.
A few series I have enjoyed are
Drop Dead Diva
It does becomes a little tricky when my husband and I both want to watch a series together. After a few slip ups he now makes me pledge that I will not skip ahead and watch it at my leisure. That we are in it together much like our marriage commitment we made almost 12 years ago. The mistakes I made happened during a little show I like to call Friday Night Lights. It was just so darn good that I could not help but watch it when he was not home. He never finished the series and blames it on the fact that I skipped ahead. I some day hope that he will find it in his heart to forgive me.
I have not made that mistake again since and we have enjoyed
Our current obsession: 24.
We are on season 2 and watch one episode each night and sometimes two in a row on weekends. I only get slightly tempted to trudge on ahead without him when he starts to doze off. But have yet to do so. I am very proud of myself.
Seriously what did we do when we did not have the option to religiously watch hundreds of hours of good television consecutively?
We probably actually communicated with one another instead
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Anyone still going strong on their news years resolutions? Yes I know it is only the end of January, but it is hard to start anew and make changes (at least for me). Thats why I am going to keep trying one of my new years resolutions over and over again until it sticks, or at least until all my kids are grown because it will be easier once they are out of the house.
I am talking about simplifying my life and getting organized. I am so terrible at it and I am not even exaggerating. Thats why I thought I would share these awesome ideas from bloggers about some great ways to simplify your life. I have decided that it will inspire me to do better. I love that these are small things that can make a huge difference in your day to day.
My favorites are
Number 1: I know it would help my kids so much if we planned their outfits before the morning of school! So much less running around looking for socks.
Number 7: The homework caddy is awesome too. I love that it’s portable you just put it wherever the kids are working on their homework.
Number 8: planning breakfast ahead of time would so help my mornings as well! My kids would love the variety too.
Which ideas would you like to incorporate into your life?
No this is not suddenly a fashion blog at all. I think I am the last person on earth qualified to strictly talk about fashion. This is about something I did for myself that was long over due that seriously helped boost my spirits.
My husband had to work all day last Saturday. He rarely does so it was not too bad, although I was finding this particular Saturday exhausting. My daughters just didn’t scream and whine enough throughout the day, SAID NO MOM EVER! I swear every thing sets my girls off some days. When one starts screaming they all have to join in. I have this bad habit of sometimes just isolating myself by running in my room. It feels like I am in full survivor mode.
I was thrilled when my husband walked in the door. So were the girls but then some other drama got in the way and the wailing began again. I looked at my husband and said in a giving up tone but not seriously, “I am going to leave.” he kindly replied. “You totally can, Why don’t you?” so I did.
As I fled the scene I quickly decided the mall was the perfect last minute retreat. I had wanted to get my hair cut into a more stylish hairstyle for awhile. Even though it was kind of late in the day I was going to first try the salon on the outside of the mall to see if anyone could cut my hair last minute. They could! This hairstylist I had never met was able to cut my hair and style it. I was so excited.
She was awesome! The haircut even included a scalp massage and a hot towel treatment on my face. This was royal treatment and so not something I am used too at all! I had her cut quite a bit of length off off my hair. I had gotten sick of just having long, limp hair. She gave me layers and cute side bangs I felt like a new person!
Since I was at the Mall I could not let my last minute retreat go without a little shopping. I love trying on clothes when my kids are not with me. It is heaven! I found a few shirts on clearance that went really well with my new cut. I was only gone for about a total of three hours but I really felt refreshed! I felt ready to return home, put on my mom hat again and put my kiddos to bed. I have also discovered with having all girls that they love to comment on hair and fashion. When I got int the door they freaked out and went on and on about how cute I looked. They also all had to all touch my soft freshly styled hair. It was odd and hilarious.
I so recommend having a last minute Mom break sometime! These kind of things do not need to be planned super ahead and written in the calendar to enjoy. I am rarely alone so just having me as company was also beneficial. I am so going to do this again even if next time it only includes a quick grocery store trip to buy me enormous amounts of chocolate to calm my nerves.